PAUSE! and begin again...

this piece is an introspective rollercoaster journey to an emotional experience of a creation process.

in the shadow side of creativity, whereas in artistic action (stage) or in life (backstage), you find yourself in a struggle of Self and Other, Self and Shadow, searching for truth and beauty.

where is the silence in music, where is the stillness in movement, apathy in the action, ugliness in beauty and beauty in ugliness, a choice to non perform when you are expected to manifest, a strive to perform when you are cut off, fear and courage, an authenticity behind the facade? is truthful? is it beautiful? what is the Beautiful?

Alina about her piece:

"the piece i'm presenting is a solo called "showtime/a non performance". it is about our human/artistic Shadow side as a powerful resource of survival and creativity. i started researching this years ago, however, the pandemic times intensified the drama of the search and sharpened the senses.

the movement style i use is a language i have developed over years of my dance practice and research, which i could say has become my individual dance style. it is based on numerous non-commercial, vernacular, underground and club dances: swing, bebop, afro-latin, UK jazz dance, that is a mix of body isolations, footwork, and contemporary dance movement research approaches. my pieces are created to contemporary improvisation music, and are "improvographies", which is a combination of choreography and improvisation spots, left to be danced in the moment of spontaneous creation."

the idea of this piece is performing a Self, while looking for its authenticity in its interaction with the Other, facing the Shadow, and using what you find there as a powerful resource for creativity and survival.
1. a showtime
1.1. act: looking for Authenticity (when meeting the
1.2. struggle: self (you) vs. audience (others, those who watch, evaluate, require), real vs. fake
1.3. localization: the stage, "out there"

music: "Showtime/23rd street runs into heaven" by John Hollenbeck & The Claudia Quintet - duration: 9:11
2. a non performance
2.1. act: looking for Self
2.2. struggle: you (self) vs. you (inner Other), action vs. apathy, motivation vs. frustration
2.3. localization: inside, psyche, blood and hormonal rushes

music: "the lingering velocity of the dead's ambitions" by Ambrose Akinmusire - duration: 09:56
3. a beauty
3.1. act: looking for Beauty
3.2. struggle: perfect vs. real
3.3. localization: back "out there"

music: "What Is The Beautiful?" by John Hollenbeck & The Claudia Quintet - duration: 7:04
book a ticket to your Shadow performance:
Ambrose Akinmusire "the lingering velocity of the dead's ambitions" from the album "Origami Harvest"
MIVOS Quartet
Marcus Gilmore
Blue Note Records

John Edward Hollenbeck & The Claudia Quintet "What is the Beautiful?"
Ted Reichman
Chris Speed
Matt Moran
Drew Gress
Cuneiform Records
Kenneth Patchen read by Kurt Elling
Alina Sokulska
camera & edit
Lorena Arroyo
Daria Koshkina
costume design
Anne-Cécile Espinach - Kimôh
Yana Kolesnikowa (im_yanis)
special thanks to
Olga Bekenshtein and Am I Jazz? Festival by Closer.Jazz
HOP festival (Barcelona, Spain, November 2021) - a work in progress
Los Angeles Dance Festival (LA, California, USA, Dec 3-5, 2021) - a work in progress

What is the Beautiful?
The narrowing line.
Walking on the burning ground.
The ledges of stone.
Owlfish wading near the horizon.
Unrest in the outer districts.


And begin again.
Needles through the eye.
Bodies cracked open like nuts.
Must have a place.
Dog has a place.


And begin again.
Tents in the sultry weather.
Rifles hate holds.
Who is right?
Was Christ?
Is it wrong to love all men?


And begin again.
Contagion of murder.
But the small whip hits back.
This is my life, Caesar.
I think it is good to live.


And begin again.
Perhaps the shapes will open.
Will flying fly?
Will singing have a song?
Will the shapes of evil fall?
Will the lives of men grow clean?
Will the power be for good?
Will the power of man find its sun?
Will the power of man flame as a sun?
Will the power of man turn against death?
Who is right?
Is war?


And begin again.
A narrow line.
Walking on the beautiful ground.
A ledge of fire.
It would take little to be free.
That no man hate another man,
Because he is black;
Because he is yellow;
Because he is white;
Or because he is English;
Or German;
Or rich;
Or poor;
Because we are everyman.


And begin again.
It would take little to be free.
That no man live at the expense of another.
Because no man can own what belongs to all.
Because no man can kill what all must see.
Because no man can lie when all are betrayed.
Because no man can hate when all are hated.

And begin again.
I know that the shapes will open.
Flying will fly, and singing will sing.
Because the only power of man is in good.
And all evil shall fail.
Because evil does not work.
Because the white man and the black man.
The Englishman and the German,
Are not real things.
They are only pictures of things.
Their shapes, like the shapes of the tree
And the flower, have no lives in names or signs;
They are their lives, and the real is in them.
And what is real shall have life always.


I believe in the truth.
I believe that every good thought I have,
All men shall have.
I believe that what is best in me,
Shall be found in every man.
I believe that only the beautiful
Shall survive on the earth.
I believe that the perfect shape of everything
Has been prepared;
And, that we do not fit our own
Is of little consequence.
Man beckons to man on this terrible road.
I believe that we are going into the darkness now;
Hundreds of years will pass before the light
Shines over the world of all men...
And I am blinded by its splendor.


And begin again.
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